My life- friends precisely

As i speak or probably write, i am getting more surreal of my thinking. Life is very short to talk about your enemies but pathetically short to talk about your love life. One thing you can always talk about is FRIENDS. A person like me who can’t write in straight lines can’t even think of keeping everything aligned but see as i am told i am a true wonder i try earnestly to keep all in the way it’s supposed to be. That’s how yeah that’s how i will frame it. But now what it looks like, i am lost. Other than becoming a pathetic and miserable person i have gained one more aspect. I have become pretty good at dejecting people. Not many of us understand the difference between rejection and dejection but those who do must have understood the real meaning of the line. When it comes to love i have been quite lucky (so far i know). I have had many choices at all points. I mean being in love is not a choice i understand that but being in a relationship is always a choice and believe me when i say i had the best to choose from. Say it my rules or ideals or whatever i always thought of the person i was going to hurt (as so you know) because of the fake relationship i was in and that thereby ended in long massage of their egos which finally made them believe that i was the one at loss by not being in that relation (till now you must have understood that it ended). But, you know, it hurts to say no. I got dejected only once in my life, though i got him back, but it made me realise how exactly it feels. I always believe life moves in a circle. You will have to pay back for what you have done. It always sums up. So, i am over cautious now. It really really hurts knowing that the person you love is in love with someone else or he doesn’t want you anymore in his life. But life is never sweet so everyone has to face their hardships. I say this not because i have faced a lot and i have understood what life is all about but because i understand what life can bring to you and where life can take you. To understand the supernatural meaning of these lines, arghh forget it, let it be.